Tuesday, January 5, 2010

faith = love

I thought that the title of my blog was appropriate for what I am about to discuss. We often question why bad things happen to good people. But in the grand scheme of things when all the dust has settled we still question our faith and say "why me" or "why did this have to happen to X" and we forget that He has a plan! I am not crazy but a believer and I believe that everything happens for a reason. It doesn't matter who your God is but that you have faith in your God.

Bad news or even disappointment can be very hard to swallow but sometimes something really bad has to happen to have a positive outcome. I know that sounds crazy but its not! It's called faith! It's knowing that He has a plan and He knows whats best for us and He will do what is in our best interest.

Did you know how many times trust is mentioned in the Bible:
Old Testament-134 times
New Testament-13 times

I also think that faith is what makes each of us so unique, similar and yet so different.

I distinctly remember questioning my faith when I couldn't get pregnant. I would fight with my God and plead with him to give me a baby. I would often wonder if He thought I wouldn't be a good mom and that's why I couldn't get pregnant. What annoyed me more were the people that could drink water or sneeze and they were pregnant yet we were trying everything and anything! Then one day our prayers were answered and we were pregnant! Now instead of being thankful and feeling blessed I would question Him asking "what did I do to deserve this?" I was so blessed and so thankful and at the same time didn't know if I was worthy to be a mom!

Today there is no job or salary or award that is more fulfilling than being a mother. It's hearing your name called even from the upstairs bathroom "MOM!" that just tugs on your heartstrings every single day! It's seeing the excitement in their eyes when you pick them up from school, volunteer in their classroom, or when they have learned something new that they want to show you! I wouldn't trade it for the world and I hope that I can teach and enstill in her my faith that lead me to her and a love that is priceless and indescribable!

I love you Stella.

1 comment:

  1. ::tears:: I love you. Everything happens for a reason. Stella was such a blessing not just to you but to all of us.

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